Remember back when I was having some health issues and I stopped eating wheat for a while. Well, although cutting out wheat was helpful we still didn't have any clarity on what was causing those problems. After numerous appointments and tests my <strong>doctor asked me to get an ultrasound</strong> because all of my blood work was not just fine but GREAT! He wanted to be sure there was nothing going on with my organs. I had the ultrasound and immediately received a call from the doctor. They <strong>saw something on my pancreas</strong> in the ultrasound and wanted to get a closer look. Now I heard the word pancreas and I knew that if they saw something, it could be really bad.

I was scheduled to get a CT Scan. After days of waiting and a little worry, I finally got the test done. The week leading up to the test was very interesting, My husband and I asked for prayer at church on Sunday and I began to feel peace. I kept praying " Lord, I trust you and whatever the outcome I know you will be glorified!".

<strong>Now let me stop here</strong> and just say that <strong>I'm not that girl</strong>... you know "that" one... the super optimistic one, always Praising the Lord regardless of her circumstances, I really wish I could be "her" but I'm not. I had been feeling really disconnected in my relationship with God and working really hard to get my priorities right, so all of this was a surprise to me, being so positive, so trusting, so at peace.

I went in for my CT Scan with that attitude - "if this is cancer, we'll be fine, I know God will use this in my life" and I believed this 100%. It was a really freeing feeling! I was confident, not in my health but in my God.
<blockquote>"And we know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to his purpose" Romans 8:28</blockquote>
I had to wait 2 days for the results, and although I was a bit nervous I felt peace. I got a call from my doctor on Wednesday telling me that they found NOTHING!  I hung up the phone and cried, I really expected the worst and I would have been ok with that... I know that sounds crazy but it's the truth. I took a minute to gather myself then I called my husband who was so relieved. I spent the rest of the afternoon snuggling the kids and realizing how loved I am, how blessed!

I've often heard it said "Why me?" or "It can't happen to me!" - - - and I always wonder, <strong>Why NOT me?</strong>

What makes me so special that I could avoid sickness, loss or trials.

My uncle died from cancer one year ago. It was a very long, very painful sickness and many people said, "why Dave..." and I don't know the answer to that but I do want to say "Why not?" Why someone else? Aren't they loved? Aren't they special, don't they have family and friends. My uncle was amazing, and I love him very much, but I don't ask why... I'm impressed by his strength through his illness and know that God had a purpose.

So that's where I've been, I've been hanging out with family, friends, going to reunions and weddings. I've been being blessed!